Lily's personal feeding machine!

That's my new identity:)...funny but very challenging. I actually didn't think i would breastfeed before being pregnant, didn't find the idea of being transformed into this "animal like" feeding machine very appealing...but i changed my mind while carrying lily and i very much like it now. When i'm feeding her and everything around us in the house is peaceful and quiet, lily is snuggled up in my chest, moving her little hands or grabbing on one of my "giant" hand, it's magical. I feel so much love and closeness to her, it's overwhelming. BUT when she cries non stop to be fed at night, i can get pretty cranky. I hear it's normal...i've been reading about it talking to the midwifes at the maternity, calling up moms from breastfeeding associations, etc. Haven't heard any magical solution yet...it takes time i guess, she has to get used to her new environment outside of my belly and things should improve overtime. We've had 2 or 3 relatively "good" nights which made us hopeful but it seems to be one step forward, 2 steps backward...Last night she was really fussy, "playing" with my nipple for ever: i knew she had enough to eat but she continued asking for it, taking it in her mouth and releasing it shortly after, crying for it again and getting all upset and red if she didn't get it...it might be gaz i hear so i'm going to try this natural homepathique remedy i've been told about (not sure why but they don't know about mylicon drops in france?...). We'll see if this works...Now that i have a few minutes to think back on what's happened over the last 2 weeks (lily's asleep and i'm enjoying a nice cup of coffee)...it's really crazy how much change we've gone through and especially me: from giving birth which was hard to describe to learning how to take care of a newborn, breastfeeding which is another huge body transformation in itself (imagine having milk come out of your breasts! crazy when you think about it isn't it??) and learning to operate on 1/3 the sleep i use to have (i've always been a big fan of sleep), it's by far the biggest adventure of my life!