4 months (and 1/2) update

I'm late on this one, it's tough to find time to write this blog between taking care of Lily, working full time, taking care of house chores, and trying to find a bit of time for myself...rare these days! but, i'll try to keep this up as much as i can as it's a great way to remember what all took place as Lily is growing up...and there's much to keep up with!
She's doing really well in terms of growth -she was at 6.7 kilos (14.8 pounds) at her 4 month doc apointment and 62 centimeters (24.4 inches). She's got big round cheeks and super fatty legs which are adorable! We're still on an exclusive breastfeeding schedule and should be for another month and then we'll start solids. I'm much less stressed about having enough milk - she poops so much that i figure she must have enough:) and i've been doing it for so long at this point that it's fine if we have to stop for some reason. I have to admit i'll be happy to lighten up on it as it's been a bit difficult to schedule feedings in the evening time while i have to be in meetings for work -but we've managed so far. Other than that i still love the feeding times.
The main recent issue has been SLEEP - of course! until this week she had been good, since she was about 2 1/2 - 3 months old she was sleeping pretty much 6 to 8 hours straight so i thought that was that, she was sleeping through the night for good. But little did i know...she started waking up 3, 4 times after putting her to bed asking for the pacifier which she would spit right back out (!) and even at 2am and 4am...a nightmare in other words. The first couple of nights were horrible, i thought my life was over. I mean i love my sleep and it's so difficult to find any energy to work and think during the day without sleep, and i don't even have to go to an office ! can't imagine how that would be...so we thought about it, read about it, and decided to try to let her cry...just as horrible. We only let her cry 15 to 20 mins max, then go see her, give her the pacifier and talk to her. But it's not been tough...the first time i cried and the second time i put my head under the pillow...i tried holding her and rocking her and she would start screaming again as soon as i put her in bed so i figured there's nothing i can do and we can't keep up waking up every hour or 2 to give her the pacifier back, she has to learn to sleep on her own. We're only at the begining of this sleep training process and it seems to be getting better...last night she didn't wake up at all, from 10:30pm until 6:30am, just amazing, i felt like a human being again today! We also got a small lamp that we leave on in her bedroom at night in case she would be scared of the dark and got her a big soft bear (Goldy) that we hope will replace the pacifier overtime and become her new night companion. And then we have to see what happens. I also realized it's ok if i don't sleep for a while, my life isn't over, i'll make it somehow - with more coffee - and there will be good nights and bad nights. Coming to terms with it helps a lot.