My little buddha

So what's new in Lily's world?...

She's trying on new sounds, not exactly the soothing kind though. Most are really high pitch...ahhhh...those will clear out your ears in no time.

She likes to seat to play, she will eventually fall on one side and start screaming for one of us to come, but she'll have fun there for a while. And she's a lot more into hard plastic toys. I think it's partly because her gums are starting to hurt.

She likes her thumb, the left one only, but not all the time. She'll take it up when her gums are hurting (i imagine) and every time i put her in bed for the afternoon nap or the night. It's super cute to see her sucking on that thumb. She doesn't seem to care for the pacifier anymore - i guess one "bad" habit is taking the place of the other.

She's still on the chunky side with big cheeks and many little folds of fat. When seating naked on her changing table she looks like a little buddha statue:)

I love when she smiles at me, especially during feeding time. She will raise her head up to look at me from time to time...those are the most amazing of smiles. I also love when she laughs when i raise her high up in the air or when i make a big loud kiss on her belly during massage time OR when she's trying to touch my face or pull on my hair when i have my head close to her little body. And of course when i pick her up in her bed in the morning, she's SO happy to see me. She also makes these "geeegeee" or "ssshhhh" sounds with her tongue sticking out, those are so sweet sounding and usually happen when i look at her and tell her i love her - she will look back at me intensely and make one of these sounds while smiling - it's like she tells me she loves me back:)

I hate when she screams - which is pretty often i have to admit. She's definitely on the difficult or demanding side. We think that's because she's more sensitive or smart than others- but of course we have to think that:) And when she doesn't really cry but she's making this really annoying sound like something's bothering her, like she's in discomfort, but no tears are coming out - she's mainly just bored or wants one of us to come take care of her. She gets bored pretty quickly our little girly which keeps things interesting at home.

She reached for me the other day which made my heart melt: Lucian was holding her and when she saw me approaching she held up both arms in my direction. That was amazing!

4 months (and 1/2) update

I'm late on this one, it's tough to find time to write this blog between taking care of Lily, working full time, taking care of house chores, and trying to find a bit of time for myself...rare these days! but, i'll try to keep this up as much as i can as it's a great way to remember what all took place as Lily is growing up...and there's much to keep up with!
She's doing really well in terms of growth -she was at 6.7 kilos (14.8 pounds) at her 4 month doc apointment and 62 centimeters (24.4 inches). She's got big round cheeks and super fatty legs which are adorable! We're still on an exclusive breastfeeding schedule and should be for another month and then we'll start solids. I'm much less stressed about having enough milk - she poops so much that i figure she must have enough:) and i've been doing it for so long at this point that it's fine if we have to stop for some reason. I have to admit i'll be happy to lighten up on it as it's been a bit difficult to schedule feedings in the evening time while i have to be in meetings for work -but we've managed so far. Other than that i still love the feeding times.
The main recent issue has been SLEEP - of course! until this week she had been good, since she was about 2 1/2 - 3 months old she was sleeping pretty much 6 to 8 hours straight so i thought that was that, she was sleeping through the night for good. But little did i know...she started waking up 3, 4 times after putting her to bed asking for the pacifier which she would spit right back out (!) and even at 2am and 4am...a nightmare in other words. The first couple of nights were horrible, i thought my life was over. I mean i love my sleep and it's so difficult to find any energy to work and think during the day without sleep, and i don't even have to go to an office ! can't imagine how that would be...so we thought about it, read about it, and decided to try to let her cry...just as horrible. We only let her cry 15 to 20 mins max, then go see her, give her the pacifier and talk to her. But it's not been tough...the first time i cried and the second time i put my head under the pillow...i tried holding her and rocking her and she would start screaming again as soon as i put her in bed so i figured there's nothing i can do and we can't keep up waking up every hour or 2 to give her the pacifier back, she has to learn to sleep on her own. We're only at the begining of this sleep training process and it seems to be getting better...last night she didn't wake up at all, from 10:30pm until 6:30am, just amazing, i felt like a human being again today! We also got a small lamp that we leave on in her bedroom at night in case she would be scared of the dark and got her a big soft bear (Goldy) that we hope will replace the pacifier overtime and become her new night companion. And then we have to see what happens. I also realized it's ok if i don't sleep for a while, my life isn't over, i'll make it somehow - with more coffee - and there will be good nights and bad nights. Coming to terms with it helps a lot.

A little homebody

I took Lily to my parents' last weekend and discovered she's likes her home sweet home -- boy was it a fun weekend! i spent the entire time there trying to comfort her, get her to sleep and stop screaming, pretty much spent the whole weekend with lily in my arms...i thought she was doing fine as she was quiet and looking everywhere when we first got there but i guess i was wrong. Not sure if she was assessing the situation then and figuring out that she wasn't home but she started on a rampage of crying that pretty much last the whole day - minus a 2 hour cease fire in the afternoon- including the whole night where i had to have her sleep with me - she would have waken up everyone including her 2.5 year old little cousin...and i could be wrong but as soon as we stepped in her room on Sunday evening i could swear i saw her smiling...i guess we don't have an adventurous girly:)